DISTANT LANDS....DISTANT CULTURES....

DIFFERENCES BETWEEN 'PEOPLES' PERMEATE THE APRIL SKIES....

REMINDING US, softly, THAT WE MUST RETAIN OUR 'SAMENESS', IN ORDER TO PROTECT THE UNIFIED STANCE OF THE NATION,

  EN MA SSE....

HENCE, THE 'THROW-AWAYS'....

THOSE UNFORTUNATE ONES WHO SOMEHOW GET IN TOO DEEPLY....

WHEN OUR BACKS ARE TURNED, THEY INSINUATE UNCTUOUSLY INTO 'POSITION', ONLY TO BE DISCARDED AT A LATER, ALBEIT PERMANENT, DATE....

THEY ARE DISAPPOINTED, DISILLUSIONED, DISHEARTENED....

FOR THIS, WE LAMENT....

FOR AFTER ALL IS SAID AND DONE, WE ARE A KIND AND MERCIFUL PEOPLE.... 

NONETHELESS, WE TAKE STRENGTH IN OUR 'CEMENTED' POSITION.....

KNOWING THAT THE 'GREATER GOOD' IS BEING SERVED UP ON A SHINING, SILVER PLATTER ....

THESE ARE THE TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS OF THE PEOPLE.....

THESE ARE THE ARDUOUS PATHS THAT WE HIKE UPON....

THE GOLDEN CALF IS NOT THE PRIZE....  NEVER WAS!!

THE GAUNTLET OF 'HONOUR' AND 'ESTEEM'.....

NOW, THATS THE PRIZE!

NO WORRIES, MY PRETTIES!!

WE WILL HOLD TIGHTLY TO OUR TEACHINGS!

PROTECTED BY THE WORDS......

UNIFIED BY THE BLESSINGS...

SANCTIFIED AND ANOINTED BY THE RITUAL.....

MAGNIFIED BY THE PAIN.....

ANGELIFIED BY THE BLISS......

I AM LOVINGLY YOUR 'GODDESS XREBBETZIN'

we can run, but we cant hide!!!

it is what it is......
we can attempt, in utmost earnest, to eradicate the presence of the 'little imps' living inside the heart.....
for certain, they can be shoved under the 'shag' carpet of the living room of our 'memory house'.....
but i got news for you!
they will come out when you least expect them , and they will wreak havoc on your day!!!!
ive SEEN them do it!!!
therell be a little, almost unnoticeable lump under your carpet.....
and you will not even really give it any credence.....
one of those 'back of the mind' things.....
you see them, but you dont attach words or concepts to them.....
in any case, THEY EXIST!!!
little, green men, the size of tangerines.....
they jump around, shouting 'truths' at you.....
HURLING insults and improprieties.....
and you get kind of annoyed.....as though a fly is hopping upon your nose......
and you try to swat it, but it WONT LEAVE.......
meandorings of the heart and mind and memory.......
suited up in green costumes to catch the 'envy flies' of yesterday......

as we were departing......

from the hall of 'crustaceans'......
we saw, in the distant HUMMER sky.....
(i mean SUMMER sky!)
a golden, balloon-type object.......
rather awkward really......
nonetheless, prevalent......
we shrieked!!!!!
"OH NO!!!!!!"
"OH NO!!!!"
we have gotten 'the boot'!!!
how can this be???
where is the 'tow park'???
is there a roller coaster at the tow park????
will they be selling cotton candy???
we will stand in the line of forlorn 'lovers' with 'boots'.....
we will be, as if, a 'puss' in boots!!
we are crawling at the bottom of the sea......
as though, twistedly, we ARE THE CRUSTACEANS!!!!
oh my goodness!!!
the 'gestalt' of it all!!!
youd have to , literally, whoop us 'upside the heads',
were we, somehow, to miss the OBVIOUS message embedded herein!!!
oy vey........
oy gestalt.......
i mean 'gevalt'!!!

ghandi said.......

"be the change you want to see in the world"

profound in its utter simplicity....
LIVE the preachings and teachings.....
give your last dime to a starving 'friend'.....
we simply cannot become 'better' if we are not even categorizable as 'good'......

go the distance, my loves......
take yourselves OUT of your own bodies, and facilitate 'betterment' among the people......

these are NOT lofty aspirations......
these are basic, human tenants, by which to live......

LIVE THEM.....
breath in the 'goodness'......the generosity of spirit......
the code of arms by which you THINK youve lived!
and BECOME those teachings.....

profound in its extreme simplicity.........

"be the change you want to see in the world"

holicaust remembrance day......

a subject matter, most decidedly, that is branded into my flesh , as if i were the 'cattle'.....

part of my DNA, as though injected directly into my blood.....

a Holocaust IV......as it were.......

remembrance???

is there a holocaust 'FORGET-NESS' lecture which i can attend??

that would perhaps be helpful.....

my days and nights have been permeated and perpetuated by Hitlers extremely hot, branding iron.......

and we are asked to pay homage to the memory of the brothers who came before us.....

appropriately so, my friends......

appropriately so.....

and the sun continues to shine......

BUT NOT TODAY!!

its raining today.......raining down with buckets ....

filled with gods tears.......

with gods' disappointment 'tears'........

observing mans 'inhumanity'......

mans capability to do wrong......

ahhh.......

and so it goes........

the line for the confessional......

the line of confessors is, for some strange reason, soooo long, that it wraps all the way around the block of 'hells kitchen'!!!
what is it that these good, gentile boys have done???
what are they confessing??
i wonder...
in the tiny cubicle of 'exploited sin'........
will there be room for the 'elephant'???
the one in 'the room'!!
questions....questions.......
no rest for the weary.......but wafers galore!!
oops!!!
wrong ritual!!!
well, confess your sins, young man........
'abso-freakin-lution' will be yours for the taking!!!!

your faithful GODDESS XREBBITZIN

the boys are back in town!!!!

they appeared!!!
they said theyd show up, and THEY DID!!!!
"enough vacation time!!", they screamed.....
"we need to be HOME".....
by the hearth......
on a puffy sofa.......
health-shake in hand!!

the boys are back.....
no more cruisin the parkways at midnight.....
tea parties for all!!!

BOSTON TEA!!

clap your hands, my friends!!!
kick up your heels!!!
dance a jig!!

PARRRRTY!!!!

call MARY and JOSEPH!!!
oops!!
josephs not here anymore!!

the prodigals have returned, unscathed by fools.....
mmm...perhaps a 'tad' 'scathed'.......
but nothing serious.......to be sure........

the quintisential day.....

the sun is ablaze in the azure sky.....
the trees are sprouting those green and pink and white spring flowers......you know the ones.......
they have a window of about a week!
and then theyre gone......quick as they came!
to the extent, that one almost thinks of those beauty moments as a kind of figment of the imaginings......
regardless, they are PRESENT.......those spring valentines......
and i am bursting with the anticipation of all of those extreme possibilities!!!!
and the troops are gearing up for what will surely be the battle of ALL battles.....
but fear not, "mon ALICIA".....
the bells will toll.......of that i am again, most certain.......
not for THEE
but for ME!!!!

brimming.....brimming........

activity levels are toooo high!!!
i cant think!!!
i cant ponder!!!
no 'blog' time!!!!
no rest for the weary!
yikes!!!
bring that shit down, girlfriend.......DOWN........
down under......

herculean attempts at publishing....

publishing 'down under'....

the kangaroo has bronchitis.......

toooo much freaking activity.......

bring that shit down.......

we need zen masters with ropes around their wastes to 'bring that shit down'......

zen masters with digital cameras and fountain pens made of quinoa....

seems to be the only alternative in complicated times like these!!

contact sports are but a distant memory....

zen-like trance states.......

we must!!

for sanity's sake.....

for the good of the people.......

no more matzoh meal, brothers!!!!

its bagel time in the big city!!!

"no nutritional value", you say???

we will circumvent these obstacles.......

and ganesha will use her super-powers to free us from the shackles of gefilte fish appetisers!!!

and all will be as it should be.........

phenominon.......

to actually be ABLE.... at long last.... to 'bury' those old, decaying, 'bravado

creatures'.......

what a luxury!!!!

we tote cargo around for entire lifetimes.....

it feels as though a gigantic , blue whale were being dragged on our backs.....

strangely, up until this very moment, we knew nothing of its existence!!

we, in point of fact, thought it 'normal'.....

that weight , cracking our shoulder blades in half......

NORMAL!!!

im telling you!!!!

and then a golden haired, doctor lady takes a whack at the whale with her 'textually-correct', polo mallet......

and,,,,,,,

BOOOOOOM!!!!!!

the whales slams its jiggly, blue, gargantuan body off of our shoulders, and into the floor boards......

making a hideous and well deserved hole in her caramel carpeted, receiving room floor!!!!

and we WEEP and WEEP.........

the likes of which we have never known before........

veritable BUCKETS of tears........

enough tears to fill the salt water bowls on the Seder tables in every home in these united states!!!!

IM TELLING YOU!!!!!

and so it goes, dear readers......

baby steps.........whales falling through floorboards......

this is the road map , leading us to the 'promised land'.....

IT HAS GOT TO BE!!!!!

good things come to those who meet up with caramel colored

doctor ladies!!!!

respectfully your......

GODDESS XREBBETZIN

managing time.......

we tend to 'manage' ourselves right up against a brick wall......
our time, scheduling, goals, relationships........
all managed ad nauseam......
heres a thought for your 'consideration'.....
STOP THE MANAGEMENT NOW!!!!
let it slide, dog......
let the atmosphere unearth its gifts for you as you wait.......
as you allow passivity to engulf you in its nonaggresive luster...
who knows what waits, unplanned, by the sea......
the sea of angelic Rastafarian magic.......
the BLACK sea.......
allow it to 'luster you up'.....as you wait.....
magic man......on the detox diatribe.......
relax your meanderings......
blue , blue heaven awaits......
for adam!

incubating perceptions.......

the perceptions of reality.....

of OUR reality.......

are ever fluid.....

as seen from myriad perch......

atop the apple 'tree of life'.......

these apples are coated with candy and caramel and other deliciouties...... as per my dictionary!!

hence.....we see the truth through iron-clad goggles, amid rain and fog and hairspray......

densely proportionate, yet oddly deluded......

and so on......

one cannot hide from the esoterica!!!

im so sorry to tell you!!!

big and distant-reaching words will chase your asses far and WIDE!!!!

it is what it is!!!

and you will be faced with the option of whether to hop aboard or be left in "ignorantville''.....

no candied apples in 'dumb-shit land!!!'

only dudes lined up, awaiting entry to the stalls of the proletariat

im telling you!!!!

HOP ON, DOG!!

streaming videos of clips of WHATTTT????!!!!

i cant keep up!!!

I MUST!!!

the publisher grande dame......

she smacks her 'esoteric' lips together in a pucker of indignation.........
she is.....after all........THE PUBLISHER LADY.....
they can try to abscond the title from her......
but heed my words, brothers.......
she IS the PUBLISHER LADY......
when her pen hits the paper......well........we shake!!!!
nerry has there been a more formidable, anthropomorphic, hybrid form of communicative non-diplomacy!!!
we FEAR HER...........
we acquiesce to her experienced type set.......
we realize very well that she can make us or break us!!!!
nonnegotiable really........
thank you.....thank you........oh queen of verbiage......
we await the profundities!!!

my old friends in distant lands.......

there they are......way, way over there......
in the promised land!!!
milk and honey and bomb shelters and white,white Jerusalem stone and the most AMAZING falafel!!!!
lucky, lucky sisters mine.......
together without me.......how can this be happening???
i should just hop on that jet and skedaddle over to the holy land......i should........
to worship on high......
i gave them a gift of fuscia slippers.......to warm their hearts amid magnetic field......a most auspicious gift, to be sure!!

fair, distant sisters........i await anxiously the day that we will reunite......
until then......BE SAFE......
KEEP YOUR CHILDREN OUT OF HARMS WAY......
god is right at your side.....
forever yours.........

the simplest of things........

can profoundly impact the condition of ones heart.....
and heart strings.......
the most ordinary of tones......
can make normal sounds seem like sonnets of celestial melody......
a smile......an inference.......a solid conclusion......
these can all make those quagmired ruts open up and force us to ascend up and out.........
and up and out........
vying ever toward the starlight kingdom......
the smell of a juicy, red apple can have pungent and exhilarating affects on our olfactory systems .....en masse.......
do not fear, my dears, that a thing is not up to 'snuff'.......
for YOU are enough to make even 'snuff' seem mediocre........
"to thine own self".........
YES!!!!
'TO THINE OWN SELF.....'
reordering and rejiggering and reconnoitering.........
continue on!!!........
continue on with the 'remembrance' of the past.......
for it will enable you to 're-member' the future.........

time of 'rebirthing'........

as we REMEMBER our exit from Egypt.......from slavery.....
i wonder, on the eve of this most auspicious holiday, whether we have truly broken the shackles that bind us.....
perhaps we have, in fact, traded the cuffs in for a new set!......a 'millennium' set!
are we still enslaved in the 'Egypt' of our minds eye??
will the bitter herbs be reminiscent of ,perhaps, LAST WEEKS imprisonment???
is it possible, bare with me here, is it possible that we continue to create 'slavery' from which to be freed???
staggering implications........
but absolutely the way of the human condition........
patterning.....embroidering........etching........that ever-so-familiar vignette........
as you munch on that matzoh this eve........as you wait for that 'most delectable' egg!!........ask yourselves, my pretties, whether you are truly free......
all my love to you.....
GODDESS XREBBETZIN

the guards are changing.......

our long ago concept of 'safety' and 'security' is holding court in the waiting room of geriatric deliberation.....

the roles have insidiously switched over......

we are now the CAREGIVERS!!!!

WE!!!

WE of traffic violations and silly and superfluous 'girly- girl'

lunches at diners!!!!

WE of 'not reading the TIMES'!!!! every day, cause wed rather be watching HBO on demand!!!!

YIKES!!!!

how can this be??? the lack of feng shui is thick in the atmosphere of twisted ridiculousness!!!

nonetheless..........IT IS WHAT IT IS......

and so it goes ........

the old get older....and the young get older.......and the trees get older and stronger......

and god is living inside the hearts of the people, shining light upon the darkness of egypt......

and Germain to this light is 'redemption'.....

and Bob Marley, the master, is chuckling up there on high......

and roadways are opening.......green on grey and green on grey.....

and it appears we are headed to old EXIT 70.........

to give thanks and to REMEMBER THE FREEDOM FROM SLAVERY........

the flowers on third avenue!! they are calling to me!!!

theres a bodega of some sort.....a small market......
on a random corner of third avenue in the 80s.....
i drive by in my big, black truck.......
and i can hear those yellow daffodils

calling my name!!!

I AM NOT KIDDING!!!!

i can hear them calling, "xrebb!!!! yes!!!! you!!!!

you with the hummer!!!! plllleeeease come and purchase us......ALL OF US......for extreme placement upon your passover table!!!!"

whats a girl to do???

in a quandary of re birthing and such.......

i am quite beside myself!!

shall i place my little, flirtatious, buds in a basket of 'matzoh'??

in order to add a bit of 'diplomatic reciprocity ' to the universal season???

as though they were colored eggs for the 'other' children to enjoy!!

shall i drag the basket, in the hummer, to the sumptuous feast aside the shore???

these are question deserving of deliberation, and ones that require a timely and elegant solution......

pondering.....pondering.....

unleavening......soul-searching........

for the very best way, i say, to create the veritable, 'spring -fest'

soufle.........

the lady with the laser lights.......

she has all the power in her hands......
'laser lady'.......
she is OMNIPOTENT......
she can erase time and error on a dime.......
a sweeeep of her magic wand!!!
lady ANNA........
"ANNA KARENINA"........
DUCHESS OF LASERRRRIA.....
i am humbled by her mere presence.......
we frequently miss the signs of 'power', even when they come smacking us , literally!, in the face!!!
the painnnnn.......excruciating!!!!!
but it has been ordained as such.......
i am without 'choice' certainly.........
and so i adhere to queen anna, humbly.....gratefully......
ever-appreciative for her gifts........