on Birthdays....

We anticipate and we plan....
and we remember birthdays past....
some GOOD..
some BAD.....
And when push comes to shove...
we ACCEPT,
albeit with a kind of 'profound chagrin'.....
that time does, in fact, move on....
regardless of POMP and/or CIRCUMSTANCE....
Time relieves us of certain ignorant notions to be sure....
while it delivers to our front doorstep....
"WISDOM".......
gift wrapped in golden cellophane....
And whether or not we are PREPARED for the hairpin turn in the road,,,,,,
we come around that bend indeed.....
NOT totally unscathed......
yet not completely WEATHER TORN either....
And the information culminates inside our head,,,,,
and we drink a CRANBERRY JUICE COCKTAIL......
And so it goes....

light and dark......

They seem to spring up from virtually the same capsule....the same 'pod'....
Are they interchangeable ?
the Light and the Dark?
Can BOTH be BOTH?
Is there a DIFFERENCE ?
REALLY ??
between the two ?
I'm not so sure at all....
They dance in tandem....
swirling and twirling and canoodling,,,,,,,
in an almost SEXUAL manner....
Yes, certainly SENSUAL....
And if, per chance, the scale tips heavily to one side or another,,,,
the likelihood is very high,,,,
that it will swing in the other direction before the day is through....
And so...
we ponder and contemplate the moves...
from dark to light....
What will it take to achieve an equilibrium ?

The Revolving Door.......

Ive got a weird story for you guys....
I met this guy in the revolving door at Lord &Taylor literally 
4 YRS AGO...
He was cute...he thought I was cute....
We went around and around the revolving door....and finally we stopped...
We were both laughing....and he asked me if I wanted to get a cup of coffee with him....
So I did....
Nice guy.....very very handsome.....a little...uhh,,,DULL.....
So we

 went our separate ways,,,,He called me several times after that, but I wasnt interested really.....
Yesterday.....HE CALLS ME.......AFTER 4 YEARS !!!
and he says,....ya ready ??
"I HAVENT STOPPED THINKING OF YOU FOR EVEN ONE DAY"
true story.....

Hydrangeated......

I'm feelin' the BLUE,,,
NOT "feeling blue".....
but rather......
feeling THE blue....
The soft, pernicious, almost idealistic BLUE of those summer flowers....
that PURPLEY , WHIMSICAL  blue.....
the one that dredges up memories of all  those barefooted,  ICE CREAM moments.....
NOSTALGIC BLUE.....
Its SO BLUE,,,,that I can almost SMELL it,,,,TASTE it even,,,,,
a CACOPHONY in BLUE.....
Picasso s "BLUE PERIOD"...
EWWWWWWW......
Can you imagine a BLUE PERIOD ????!
But then........Picasso was a GUY, so.....
OUT of the BLUE.....
Yup....

Contemplation of the 'NEGATIVE SPACE"....

Into every SCENE...
every SCENARIO,,,,,
EVEN......
every PAINTING,,,,,,
there exists "negative space".....
What is NEGATIVE SPACE, you ask ?
It is, from my viewpoint,
 the grey matter.....
 between and betwixt the CONSPICUOUS......
The 'information' which does not OFFER itself readily upon face value,,,,
which one must indeed DIG to uncover....
But,,,,,
as with virtually EVERY TREASURE,,,,,
it is that specific space which holds the TRUE ESSENCE of the scene,,,,,,
Ya following me here ??

It's ALWAYS Something....

The road which one is travelling upon.....
may be SUNNY....
 and MILD......
and EVEN strewn with rose petals.....
It may be BOUNTIFUL....
and AESTHETICALLY BEAUTIFUL.....
and it may even SMELL like HOMEMADE, APPLE PIE....
There might even be,
on this hypothetical ROAD,,,,,,
 pillows piled to the brim with goose feathers,,,,
and TURQUOISE, SILKEN SLIPPERS....
and......
CHOCOLATE.......
AND EVEN, mind you,
EVEN WITH ALL OF THIS 'SEEMING' PERFECTION.....
one, tiny detail......
one irrelevant piece of minutia......
could VERY WELL bring the ENTIRE 'love-laced' house of cards
 CRASHING DOWN 
In point of fact.....
(and this is FREQUENTLY the case),,,,
we can be having a PERFECT day.....thrilled to pieces EVEN.....
 over some gobbledygook or other......
and a STRANGER in a neighboring car at a random stoplight in a "non familiar" location......
could simply give us a LOOK that is.....uhhh.....
"less than pleasant"....
or make some BLOWHARD, Minivan GESTURE.....
((((NOTHING TO DO WITH US !!!!!)))))
and sure as the nose on my face......
OUR BEAUTIFUL DAY WILL BE RUINED.....
Right ?
What does this say about US ?

Re-WRITING the Script.....

What do you suppose would happen if we kind of ERASED the parts of our history

that just simply didn't suit us ?

...didnt work ?

expunged them...

almost as if we were given the opportunity to RE WRITE  a screen-play....

What would happen ?
In reality-based painting, the painter articulates exactly that which is set before him....

only to then RE EXAMINE the piece in order to determine whether it actually 'WORKS'....

whether it RINGS TRUE.....

If for some reason, which is often the case,

the painting is simply NOT WORKING in its TRUEST form....

he then has consummate,artistic license to ALTER that reality in order to enhance the work.....

So....

What if the same "artistic license" were available for our LIFE SCRIPT ?

IS THIS an option ?