you can have whatever you like.....

words to live by.......
everything is available.....
ALL OF IT !!!
at your fingertips......
just like that....
all you need do is 'wish' upon the 'purim' stars.......
triangular cookies and noisemakers galore will be yours,
as the 'enemies of the state' are sold as chattle,
with the caveat of  'disclamer'.....
one never knows  when disclaimer will come in handy !
one simply cannot have enough disclaimer !!
and the clauses are endless.....
NOT 'SANTA CLAUSES' !!
rudolph is sequestered until next december....
getting the gifts ready.....
rudolph is germanic in nature....
likes to 'plan ahead'.....
and the children are dancing and wearing 'prada' glasses.....
as another season of merriment unfolds....
and so it goes.......

its coming up 'buttercups'...

the snow melts away,
 and the long visit at the 'inner sanctum hotel'.....
comes to a HAPPY CLOSE.....
all is , once again, well....
in the land of freedom and virtuosity....
the cows have been 'put out to pasture'.....
thankfully !!
each cow has been 'dealt with'....
accordingly...
 in deference to her own, particular brand of 'feed'.......and such......
unfortunate 'icicles' are dropping on heads rolling by.......
unfortunate casualties of winters gone awry.....

nonetheless......
the sky is turning and churning out happy songs of 'goodbye'.....
summer is right around the bend !!!

yippee !!!!!!!!

never having been a fan of gossip......

and useless rhetoric....
i am chagrined , at best.......
by the way 'friends' can turn on a dime....
somehow even 'invalidating' the purity and 'sanctity' of friendship....
of commeradery....
of kindred ness.....

and then.....
on the other hand,
how far is too far ???
when does an 'indiscretion' turn into to a 'betrayal' ??
how much is TOO MUCH ??

these are the meandorings,
set high upon this evening's sabbath table ......
for your perusal and, of course, editorial......

on being a 'lady'....

what is it that allows one woman
to bring her grumpy and hostile day with her,
 regardless of the 'NEEDS' around her ?

while others,
 in considerably worse situational actuality,
can pointedly  don their 'party face',
 so as to 'comfort' and assimilate??

why are some so entitled to their moods?
 while others
work so hard to 'mask' their own sorrows and such ??
is it cultural?
is it a question of proper 'parenting'?

who on earth !
  gave 'permission' to those people
to 'do whatever they feel'....

at any time ??

and further....
to judge and question and ridicule,
those things that do not
 fit smoothly
into their silly and prissy,  plastic boxes??
the ones with the mundane decals ,
stamped atop the lids ?

is it a result of their own, personal frustration ??

do these divas ever, truly, look into the mirror ?

and what is it, prey tell, that they see when they do?

who do they see looking back at them ?
who and what is guiding their behavior ?
and to what end ??

they are parochial 'concubines'......

spoiled....underdeveloped.....

and we are constantly, for some crazy reason,
 unbeknownst to us,
working to PLEASE THEM......

but they can't really, EVER, be pleased.....

because they are closed to love and flaw and compassion....

because they are wrapped so tightly into the womb of minutia.....

we have felt sorry for them from time to time....

but their  lack of decorum and feminine sympatico has left us feeling COLD......

and their complete inability to 'unconditionally love'.....

well.....
i don't know what to say about that....

perhaps they need to go back to studying 'TORAH'......
deeply....
so as to incorporate the ethics and nuances of becoming
'women of valour'.......

or perhaps, after all is said and done,
they just need to remain afloat,
upon their own
'life rafts'.....

the ones with the built-in alarm clocks.....
and daily planners......
and potential menus....

"and just like that ....."

the fantasy becomes a reality.....
and it COMPLETELY lives up to its 'point of expectation'.....
perhaps it even exceeds it..........
on some level....
and yet......
feelings of 'doubt' peremeate the 'all but perfect' scene.....
leaving a piece of 'heart', lying atop the duvet.......

the human condition is a fragile entity......
flawed....
somehow.......taken 'hostage' easily.....
we slip into the ever-familiar role of 'victim'......
so as not to necessitate GUILT.....remorse...regret.......

all the while, feeling 'pretty damn good' !!

complicated beings....we are......
complicated and predictable and TOTALLY SURPRISING !!

he lives in the shadows of his own 'darkness'........

and he allows himself to come out and 'play' every so often...
seldom, actually.....
for his sense of responsibilty is fierce.....and all enveloping.....
as though he were the FATHER of everything mystical......
he carves and studies and chants and 'casts'......
and somehow, he forgets his very own 'humanity'......as such......
and the little boy who lives inside his body cries......
tears of a child, wanting to be free of encumbrance....of work......
but his sense of obligation tends to override the 'little boy's needs'.....
hence....
his insides can feel twisted and torn......
quite in contrast to his physical 'beauty'.......
nonetheless......
we continue to love him......
for he has a piece of our heart in his back pocket......
for safe keeping......:)
ode to 'ricky'........

the embroidery on the 'challah cover' of life.....

it's a thing of great beauty.....
the way the silken thread of lifes 'tapestry' continuously weaves 'in and out' ,
in order to create a colorful and meaningful
 'plethora' of exchange and metaphor and experience.....
in order to keep us ALWAYS on our 'mindful' toes....
perched upon the edge of
 'anticipatory limb'....
are we ready to HANDLE and to COPE
 and to essentially 'FILIBUSTER' at a moment's notice ??
just like that ??
and what if we are NOT READY for the COLOR ???
will it not bleed itself into our day regardless ??
'nonplussed' by our lack of prepared ness ???
better, my friends, to 'MAN UP'.....
to await, with eyes wide open ,
for the twists and turns that will surely make their way
onto your
'road map' of choice.....
don't say that i didn't try to 'warn' you  !!!
GET READY !!!!
the opportunity will only show itself
when you are COMPLETELY READY FOR IT !!!!
and even still.......you may miss it....
no regrets,   my loves......
please....
do it right !!

and we continue onward.....

and 'upward'.....
and the spectrum of possibility is endless with opportunity and potential........
and as the winter skies turn  to a crisp, springlike 'azure'.....
so do we begin to count the blessings and miracles
 hidden away......
 down beneath the piles of slush and leftover snow...
the 'mounds' which have been, inevitably,
 'shoved' over to the sides of the 'cement jungle' thoroughfares....
forgotten and dirty and playing the roles,
 really ONLY,
  as 'remnants' of the 'COLD'.....
moved aside, in order to 'service' the urban legends,
 who are ever attempting to 'navigate' through
the obscurity and random placement....
 of 'idiosyncratic avenue'
.....as such......
blissfully ridiculous....
beaurocrats making their ways through the mazes of 'red tape'.....
 and........
to what end ??

so theres a 'stranger' in a far away land.....

a land of 'milk and honey' and 'silicone' ......
and he is soooo very scrumptious......
a boiling, scorching hot specimen of MAN....
and 'we' were just a 'tadpole', when last we laid eyes on his gorgeous ness...
and now.......
its as if his hand has stretched across the globe......
in order to cup our breast in it......
in order to re construct that night of 'missed opportunities'......

the world is gestault in its very essence....
and we have been awakened to a long forgotten fantasy....

BE CAREFUL !!!! BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR!!!!!

because......GUESS WHAT ????
its gonna happen !!!
it'll come at you from the back,
 and 'WHOOP' YOU RIGHT UPSIDE THE HEAD!!!..
you won't know what hit you !!!!
until youre down on the ground.......
begging and pleading.......
for MORE TIME in which to adjust yourself.....
to the evolution of the 'thing' you'd been
 so ardently wishing for in the first place !!!!
and the 'thing'.....(the fulfilled wish).....
has grown a MIND of its own.....
complete with contravertial DNA, an outrageous appetite, and LOADS OF
'little 'wish' friends'........
who come and knock at the door at inappropriate and LATE HOURS !!!
BE VERY, VERY CAREFUL what you wish for......
think it through.....
make a plan.......
and then, BY GOSH, enjoy the shit out of it !!!

wishes....... phenominon therein.......

it seems to me.......
after a veritable 'lifetime' of studying the human 'condition'....
that as we set our 'intention',
 in a direct and focused way,
we are REALLY 'PHYSICALLY',
transmitting MATTER
 into the atmosphere....
so as to ACTUALIZE,
 in some kind of 'anthropomorphic' language,
(for better human understanding).....
that which we are WISHING FOR....

i dont know that these singular steps appear anywhere in the
'wisher's handbook'.....
but i know this to be so.....empirically ........

so it goes like this....

DECIDE on a desire.....
make certain that this 'desire', 'wish', 'appeal'.......
is NOT only 'self serving'.......

this is important and strategic....

i'm not telling you to become  'mother THERESA'......
totally selfless or angelic........

i'm simply pointing out that intention can be actualized,
as long as the
end goal does not hurt, damage, or infringe upon the community,
 en masse.......
or on any good 'effort' at all......for that matter.....

'good', i suppose, being a relative word....:)

so.....
in any case.....

intention and focus can be developed and honed.....
as muscle......

there will come a time......i PROMISE YOU.....
when you will possess the ability to 'simply manifest'
that which you are yearning for.....

within a few moments time.....

if you PRACTICE and study your own codes and ethics.....

this may sound corny and posthumous.....
as though i am attempting to be your LIFE COACH......
or some kind of 'guru'.....

i am merely giving you the tools which i have devoted so much time and energy to develop on my own.....

a shortcut to ALL THINGS GOOD.....

for you, my loves.........

and as the doldrums roll away.....

and the massive 'stone' that we carry on our 'weary and exhausted' shoulders
is THROWN OFF, once and for all....
as we hear the THUD of rock hitting formica,
AND crashing INTO SHARDS OF 'broken fantasy'
.......and splattered egoes......
and bruised manifestations of drudgery.......

simultaneously......

the world is convening at a point of 'return'.......
'RE MEMBERANCE'.......
convening to assuage
the 'brutalized confusion and afterthought'......
of outrageous disclamer....

TIME IS RUNNING OUT !!!!
the bleachers and reviewing stands are filled
to the brim with onlookers and curiosity 'cats'.......

on the edges of their invisible, yet dominant, seats......

they await.......in earnest.....

for the 'hallowed' show to begin !!!

frankfurters in hand........

and as the universe turns on its political 'axis'.....

so do the 'masses' churn and yearn for 'non altercation'.....
for the priviledge to live without constant conflict and division....

somehow, recent 'shifts' in the embroidery of  the nation's 'politique'
 have raised more than a few eyebrows.....
would that botox and 'fillers' could manufacture this kind of 'lift' as effortlessly.....:)
we would be running a 'dermatological marathon' !!


there exists a 'scism' in the atmosphere...
that was simply NOT present before.....
a kind of 'race card' has shown its teeth, on ALL FRONTS......
difficult to explain really......
more through 'osmosis' almost....
than through actual events....

a hardening of the demographic artery....

we are in need of a diplomatic 'stint' perhaps !

for if this 'GAP' in our 'supposed unity' continues, the fear that the result
will leave 'cataclysm' in its wake is profound and REAL.......

solutions to these insidious, albeit 'pronounced',  obstacles seem not to be forthcoming.......

perhaps prayer is the ONLY solution at this time.....
we are in need of a miracle.....

and the senses are finely attuned....

as it were....
to the specificities of 'the craft' at hand....
to the tastes and sounds of re invention......
and the likes.....
and to the almost 'metalic' sound of 'conundrum'
 as it  unravels and unfolds and un earths the deep,
 carefully laid plans for the 'redemption tea'......
for the redemption TEA PARTY......
fully accentuated with scones and sweet cream and 'forget-me-nots'.....
laid elegantly,
with doilies and pomegranate spice and 'PASSOVER' jelly-rolls ......
a 'FANTABULOUS' FEAST to behold !!!!

they are lining up outside already !!!
they can hardly wait until the FAT LADY
 begins to sing her sweet and sad melody in operatic nomenclature.......

let the ritual begin......
and take NO PRISONERS........

and when you have ALL but given up.......

the 'unexpected' just appears.....
out of nowhere....
just like that !!
the Talmud says, "a man is NOTHING, and then he is SOMETHING"......
simple.....profound.....

around the very corner from where you stand ,
 is the key to unlock the
sojourning of your 'heart's desire'.....

just like that!

all you need really do , in order to seize this opportunity.....
is to TURN the corner......
SIMPLE......

or is it??

do we actually stay 'rooted' in a spot ??
cemented rather ??

paralyzed with the fear and 'un knowing' of what the future will bring??
the immediate future even.....

where has our 'joie de vive' escaped to ???

where IS the AD HOC, spirited 'risk taker' of  just yesterday ??

is she still alive, beneath the embers of our own,
 histrionic pile of 'rubble and ash'??

we can, somehow, see those dazzling, green eyes,
 shining EVER
through the shards
of outrageous 'disclamer and eruption'.....

TURN THE CORNER, SIGFRIED.......
see the forest through the trees....
amaze yourself !!!!

it will be EXCELLENT .....
it will be EXCELLENT.......

as luck would have it....

the 'truth fairy' came knocking upon our door
 in the very, very wee hours of the night....
she was dressed, from head to toe, in violet......
cacophonous,folds of rich, regal 'violet'.....
wrapped with some precision actually,
around her entire body,
as if they were encasing a mummy really......
but she felt no pain...
as, after all, she was a 'fairy'....
she awoke us somewhat abruptly....
by tapping her golden wand upon our foreheads....
imagine the shock at seeing a purple fairy standing over us!!!
but we quickly gained composure and even 'comfort'....
as it was abundantly clear that no harm
 would come our way from this 'good' entity.....
she was indeed an emissary of 'truth'....
come to pass along a message .......
come to impart wisdom and 'reality' and 'practical application'.....
mummified......
aglow.......

so to what did we owe this esteemed visit ???

were we somehow caught in 'less-than-practical' stance??

she sat on the edge of our bed....
it's interesting to note here that, from our viewpoint,
she seemed 'endless', in a way...
no feet......no 'fuschia' slippers..........

endless as 'truth' itself......

however present...

the daunting and shocking words that fell from her lips
are replaying over and over in the eardrum of our minds.......

"CONTINUE FORWARD".......
"MOVE AHEAD WITH FORCE AND PRECISION".....
"ALLOW NO OBSTACLE TO DISIGNITE
 THE FLAME OF YOUR ABUNDANCE"......

ok then....
we have our marching orders for the day !!!!
we shall continue onward, as soldiers of 'truth'...
victoriously so !!

and the birthday cake of yesterday.......

will still be rich with 'red velvet' and cream.....
as we 'smooth' the wrinkles on the
paperwhite faces of
those whom we have loved
for as long as we can remember...
time has moved their countenance into 'the now'.....
as we attempt, with 'futility',
to find the youth
that we choose to EVER 'see'
as we gaze upon them.....
how did the people, en masse,
arrive at this juncture??
painful and audacious to see them
descending the
'autumn staircase' of lifes seasonal bewilderment.....
and yet....
we are grateful....
not in a corny, superficially 'yogic' way...
we are filled with completion...
for the enormous sacrifice that we have made,
in order to house them accordingly....
with dignity and 'grace'.....
as that bandit, known as 'time' continues
to sweep the streets of our hearts...
in order to 'make room' for the next snow....
and so it goes..

strange gifts arrive....

wrapped in red and gold boxes....
unexpected, little goodies for valentine girls in black, silk pajamas......
a 'vegan' valentine....
filled with carob and granola and designer shoes....
I'm in!!
you don't have to ask me twice!
and then the story will 'unfold' as all challenging things eventually do....
in the land of 'incense' and 'glamour' and 'caramel'........
will the man in the suit of 'ambiguity' win the 'trophy girl' up on the shelf??
or will there simply be enough 'vega licious' chili to go around??
stay tuned....
my lovey readers......
SHABBAT SHALOM.......

one door opens......

another closes......

things seem to appear in 'bundles' of sorts.....

memorable events......

calamaties......great surprises.......

birthdays, funerals, bar mitzvot.....

its a phenomenon that Ive taken note of throughout my life......

there is a time period where nothing much happens.....

and then.........

BOOM!!

it all rather rains down from 'on high' .......
in torrents......
and we get sooooo wet!!!!
with confusion.....and discourse......
and OF COURSE, we have no UMBRELLA to protect us from the downpour........
and from the veritable 'onslaught' of minutia and rhetoric and.....
lets face it........
debacle !!!

and yet....

blue skies confront the doldrums...

making way and opening 'path' for subtle 'shift' and magnificent, alchemical reconfiguration......

and a sliver of a window opens, in order to suggest that the 'pathway' is aligned with GOLD.......

and so on......

its crazy out there in 'snow town'........

we are essentially 'snowed in'.....
'snow jobbed' .....
we got bamboozled into expecting the inclement 'tirades',
and hence fulfilled
'a self-fulfilling prophecy'.....
further.......
we got 'snowed' into political 'unrest'......'upheaval'......'insubordination'.....
no more Neapolitan ice cream.......
we want the strawberry back on the sundae of 'Superbowl's'.......
instead we get HERO SANDWICHES........filled with bologna !!!!
and after all......
WHO ARE THE HEROES????
TELL ME !!!!

THEY SAY......

THEY SAY......
that its gonna snow blizzards and tornadoes TODAY !!!
THEY SAY.....
THAT "it's NOT the MEAT.....its the MOTION" !!!...
ha!!~
THEY SAY.......
that 'perception is EVERYTHING'....
THEY SAY......
that women age like 'fine wine'.....uhuu.......

what else do they say???.......you ask??......

they say that "wisdom comes with age",

and that 'LESS IS MORE'

THAT'S A GOOD ONE!!
.....
they say that a man doesn't HAVE TO BE GOOD LOOKING !!!

and that your hair should always be done up 'just SO'.....
in case of a CAR ACCIDENT!!!!!!

right.......don't worry about the 'dangling limbs',
as long as your HAIR LOOKS GOOD!!!!!

oh no, my loves.....
I'm not done yet !!!

they say that 'thing' about the 'groundhog'....

and that eating 'raw' is more conducive to living a long life.....
but whats life without a little pastrami on rye????

WHO ARE THEY???
AND WHAT DO THEY REALLY WANT FROM US ?????

are they aliens from other universes,
trying to manipulate us into acquiescence????

THEY LIE!!
I'M TELLING YOU!!!

and as she gazed around at the crowds......

she realized, with an oddly familiar sense of 'deja vu'......
that they were all rather HYPER FOCUSED on her.....
but what REALLY caught her irrefutable attention,
was the sense of 'belonging ness' that overwhelmed her entire being.....
a kind of CALM belonging.....
nothing aggressive nor inappropriate......
SHE WAS HOME.....
it had been awhile since she'd graced these hallowed halls with her presence, admittedly....
and she had more than a bit of guilt over this fact.....
nonetheless....
she couldn't really escape the 'familial' quality that clearly had been missing....
and so......
her 'RHAPSODY IN BLUE' knew no boundaries nor indiscretions.......
floating, readily, above their countenance......
beyond the pale.......

and as the party commenceth........

so doth the 'magic' re invent itself...
with flavour and spice.......
and channeled flow......
and so on.........
as we try to limit the 'fantasy' .....to only a 'spoonful' per day......
'they'.......(the spirit guides)......
will NOT hear of such blasphemy !!!!
EVER MORE allowing the 'chi' to continue its rhythmic dance......
in circular motion.....
way up above our heads......
and so......
the honey, yet again,
is QUITE 'out of the jar'.....
peeking over the edge,
in mischievous fashion.......
wrapping its 'sugary sweet', little arms....
around our 'newly defined' waistlines!
MOVE OVER, GIRLY GIRLS !!!!!
WE ARE BACK !!!!!!!!!!!

complex and sublime.........

its all filled to the brim with barrels of 'minutia' and concavity......

all of it.........

overlapping dogma hits right up against 'insidious toxicity'........

all the while, we are attempting to dilute and dissect and 'transmute' the

negative 'isms' to greener, more 'healing' properties......

perhaps a tad 'unrealistic'.......

and so on........

and we have gigantic lawn bags filled with 'stuff', being HURLED at such resounding speed,

that light headedness enters our sphere of actuality.......

having said all of this, the light at the end of the 'proverbial tunnel' glows with hope

and pure, human integration........

and we are essentially vulnerable to all things 'penetrable'.......

and perhaps to some things 'celestial'......

keeping faith in our arsenal of 'full disclosure'......

condensing 'human suffering', into a 'capsule' of sorts......

in order to assuage the inevitable pain and melodrama......

of our 'Pavlovian' existentialism........

counter intuitive.......

does it ALWAYS have to feel RIGHT, in order to BE right?

is it possible that our 'ORGANIC inclination' is NOT the absolute gospel?

when is 'counter intuition' really the appropriate and righteous path to walk upon?

this is a quandary of 'mind boggling' implication.....

who should we heed, after all?

which voice of 'reason' is the 'JUST' dictator of 'RIGHT'?

we seguay and exacerbate and procrastinate .......

and the answers are floating in myriad abyss ......

above our heads.....

way up high.......

upon the auction block of 'diluted happenstance'.......

'trying' to be funny....

in the end of the day, we cannot CREATE humour.......
humour exists.....in the folds of your mustard colored dress....
the ones with the dried bu gars hidden WAY UNDER their recesses.....
funny HAPPENS......
its not esoteric......
its not merciful.....
funny takes on its own fangs.....it takes no prisoners.....it BITES!!
bending over and ripping the butt seam in your pants........
NOW THAT'S FUNNY!!!!
the kid who fell into the Victoria's secret dressing room,
when the slide fell through the floor at the birthday party!!!!
that, my friends, is HILARIOUS!!!!!
layers and layers of silliness and hilarity are reaching up to you,
in the hopes that they can bring levity and upswing
to your otherwise mundane and uneventful existence......
BE ON THE lookout for the hands of 'FUNNY'........
they will keep you afloat, during the flood......
LAUGH HARD.....
HARD IS GOOD!!!
just try it, you old saps!!