whats a girl to do?????

LAKE HOUSES and 'beach ed friends' and airplanes going 'nowhere fast' are calling ALL AT ONCE!!!!

decisions and paint tubes and 'rice' crispies!!!!

they are on the menu of sabbath long forgotten........

can we resurrect the dogmatic consumption in a trailer by the shore??

if ,in fact, we CAN.......does it follow reasonably that we can effect a

contagious

(in a good way!)

and everlasting spiral upward......toward misty, 'ivied' gates??

WHAT AN IMAGE TO CONJURE.......

and after all........CONJURE WE MUST!!!!

slipping and sliding and wiggling and reconnoitering in cottages built of the finest LEGO.....

erections of GRAND SCALE......to be sure!!

what more do we need........AFTER ALL.......

and yet.....

"hmmmm......yourself!!",,,,,,,,,,

i cant........i cant tell ALL!!!!!
but you do KNOW that 'hotty' is as 'hotty' DOES......
to be sure!!
my .....ohhh.......my.......
NOT to worry, sister mine!!
all is well in the town hall tonight.....
and the farm boys are raising the roof!!!!
TANTALIZING BLISS!!!!
petunias for breakfast!!!!
meatloaf salad is being served at the gallows, as the spectators SPECTATE!!!!!
and we have donned our best, green frock to have them ogle upon!!!
we cant help being that which we ARE!!!!
we have, in fact, attempted several times to be that which we ARE NOT!!!
ineffective at best......to be sure....
designer labels are fancy ENOUGH for the high priestess at the gallows theatre company ball....

ahhhhhh!!!!! a lizard is slithering by!!!!!

he has 'heard' the news!!!!
about the 'good seats'!!!!!

and he will be first in line at the reviewing stand of 'church and state'......
he must head them off at the pass!!!!
continuing with folly and ginger tea for weary travelers......

distant as the Yorkshire dunes.........so distant.......
and yet......and yet......
just over there in our own back yard!!!

and we call this.......

puppy love......
in all OF its sweet, innocent 'glory'........
cascading down the shoulders of past ingenue ........
can we keep those embers burning for a bit longer,
in order to finish that which we've CLEARLY begun?
or does the 'hotty' in the white shirt, finally, deserve our attention?
should we, after all is said and done, invite him up?
hes been asking for soooooo long......
waiting soooo patiently.......
he broke our 'flip flop!......in his wild pursuit!!
and in the end......after all.....he IS a hotty!

i think im leaning . favorably, in his direction!!
oh my!!
he will be so grateful.........so 'worshipping', after all.......
why not????
why not????
the little birds are flying the coup, in any case.......
why not????
preeminent 'voluptuization'.........to be sure.......
oh my!!
baking the vultures 'in a pie'.......
preparing the plums in a pudding of 'tantalized, whipped caramel'......
with a side of brisket!!
we cannot forget our roots!!
we must ALWAYS 'touch up' the roots of BRISKET!!!!
FOR GODS SAKE!!!
which way is up??
all roads point in the direction of home.......

and in one fell swoop......

the hand of god reaches down into our midst, and re shuffles the very 'matter' surrounding our given circumstances in a way that is both BLATANTLY COMMANDING and resoundingly MIRACULOUS.........
so that we see a kind of ethereal mist rising up from the ashes of yesteryear gloom.....
fantastic.......incredible.......
ahhhh.....to have credence lent to our wavering beliefs.........ahhhhh!!!
the pure luxury of that profundity.......
to have belief actually OWN its 'validity'.......in and of itself......
rather indescribable.......
like the Salem trials......
trials and tribulations of past calamitous debacles.......
oh my.....oh my.......
blackbirds baked in a WHAT????

limited access.....

a girls gotta keep a few things to herself, after all!
cant share EVERYTHING with the pack.....
now that wouldn't have enough 'mystique' for she....
right??
am i right???
it wouldn't be sexy or 'thought -provoking'......
nope.......
it wouldn't be 'PROVOCATIVE'!!!
and after all is said and done, my good fellows, provocations what she does best!!!!!
so 'she-devil' rides off into the sunset!!!
on her boys best Harley.......
no 'chicken for the soul' on the back of that there Harley!!!
we cannot constantly access 'chicken for the soul'!!!
its simply not PRACTICAL......
and it, for sure, loses its saucy and sexy EDGE!!
SO.......
the wild blue yonder awaits.....
anticipation.....provocation.....insulation.....degredation......
yonder........yonder.....
wheres BLITZ EN????
where the HELL is SCHMULIC????

parallel universe........

the parallel universe, as it were, holds within its very essence, a kind of fascination for me.....
the fact that one can, quite literally, live a wholly different existence from another ........
and yet.....and yet......
there exists within the iconic atmosphere , a kind of 'same ness'........
a reiteration of experience......a kind of 'shared history'......
an energetic symbiosis.......
so......we wish fervently to think ourselves 'unique'......'special'........'unusual'.....
but broken down to the bare bones of it........
the sort of 'lowest common denominator'......
we seem to ALL be peculiarly similar........
OR NOT!!!
its , i suppose, the 'US AND THEM' thing......
shirts and skins........
rhyme and reason.......
elementary and rudimentary...........
yin and yang.......
so on.......
we befriend like minded girly girls, because they can empathize, sympathize, harmonize........with our dilemma......with our spirit......
with our experience.......
and we with theirs......
and suddenly, in retrospect, we see that its ALL BEEN EXACTLY THE SAME!!!
but packaged a bit differently......
and with this incredible Revelation, comes a sort of 'comfort' and 'cohesion'......
and that indelibly etched sense that we are NOT alone......
that we matter.....
ahhhh.....
rainy day reflections!!!

simplification please...........

it would serve us very well indeed to simplify......

to qualify and quantify......

and reduce the baggage of yesteryear........

for that past 'yuckiness' has no place upon the platform of 'higher realm'......

lucky to be seated atop the apex, legs dangling to and fro .....
significantly so......audaciously so even........

almost as if a 'wing ed' messenger has placed us upon his back, and flown us right on up here!!!

the views are sensational..........green forever and ever.........

PAST AND PRESENT AND MOST SIGNIFICANTLY, 'FUTURE' ........
directly before our very eyes......on high.......

and so we see PERSPECTIVE........
we OWN it.....

the perch atop the world has spread open the ENORMITY of potential........
we ARE soothing, liquid potential, to be sure......
we are the anthropomorphic 'elixir'......

sweet potato pie!!!
search no more, girls!!!

the past has been eradicated, expunged........
not all of it!!
no!! no!!!
just the 'yuckiness'......

the pretty, pink vignettes.......they are right in place inside the 'photo album' of our minds eye.....
of course they are.......

it wasnt all bad......we must remember the good......

we cannot allow the 'low vibrations' to enter into our field of energy......
they, after all, are based in 'fear'.....

we must pity those of the 'low vibrations'.......
for they, after all, cannot access truth......
and without the 'truth accessing' tools, they are lost indeed in a sea of denial and brittle hopelessness.........

we must pray for those poor, lost souls......
pray that they may find 'peace'......love.......maluability.......

and at the same time, we really ought to give thanks for our higher vibratory sensation..........

luck lucky US!!!!

ahhhh.......melodies and fragrances of the heart......
poetry, to be sure.....

GODDESS XREBBITZIN

lines are blurred......

the overlapping qualities of a situation with myriad and somewhat 'dubious' appendages can truly cover an entire scenario with a kind of translucent blanket of opacity and mystique.......and murk actually......
wherein holding onto truth and logic and faith in the concept of some sort of
'justice being served', becomes a kind of 'leap'......as such.......

hence, the human need for order and authority....
one then can only hope in such an instance, that the ones at the helm of authority will find judicious and 'humanitarian' ways to bring truth and light to dark and questionable occasion......

one can hope......

for without EXTREME and EXALTED measure and filibustering, alongside supreme and divine justification, the innocent become the victims of melodrama and canoodled veracity......

and it appears to follow that this very juncture can bring with it implications of extraordinary SOLUTION and RESOLUTION.....

heavy, heavy stuff........
sorry, my pretties!!
ill try to get back to being my HILARIOUS self!! very, very soon!!!
that's a promise!!!
sleep tight!!!
lovingly.....
GODDESS X..........

peace......must have peace......

the children need to be singing and dancing and laughing..........
the children need to be helping little, old ladies across busy thoroughfares...........
not defending their own, Young honour.......
the children must have peace and lolly pops and soccer games.........
and so on and so on........

the parents must have sense and wisdom and honour the children above and beyond their own
selves......
the parents must honour the right of the children simply to LIVE.....to THRIVE......to LOVE.....

we are not placed upon this earth to inflict pain and judgment and punitive chaos upon those beauties whom we are so fortunate to be responsible for.......

the children must be free to run across the green and vast and fertile tundra........
to sprint the open field in wonder and awe of the sheer 'green ness' of it all.......

king Solomon has spoken........in his infinite wisdom.....

"do not cut the baby in half".....he says.....

a real mother would never do such a thing......never......

king Solomon knows.......he of clever and righteous proclivity.....

the heavens are laughing along with the children!!
shabbat will enter tonight with an aura of miraculous sentiment.......miraculous actuality......

belive in a higher being, my friends.....
for there is the ONE atop your dresser......
reflected in the mirror of vanity....

watching over........a shomer.......

shabbat shalom......

lovingly and most 'gratefully' your.....
GODDESS XREBBETZIN

community...... sense of belongingness.......

what is a community???

is it a random grouping of whomever is available, put into play, so as not to feel alone??

or is the 'shoulder'....en Mass.....one can cry on...rely on.....perhaps even SPY on!!!

how do we categorize community??

do we feel it happening around us, or do we simply wake up one morning and have a very best friend, holding our hand, as if she were a sister of our own??

sending eggplant and such.......

how very lucky and fortuitous is the moment when we find ourselves 'smack-dab' in the middle of a loving and caring and nurturing and eggplant ordering group of 'friends'.......in a COMMUNITY........

for crying out loud!!!!

where, oh where, have they been all our lives??

how did we make it through the long and arduous rights of passage without them along our side???

i am deeply overwhelmed.......

highly grateful.....

considerably moved...

to find that my community has sprouted all around me and mine....

thank you ......thank you.....
the line ends here in the waiting room of the 'unihabited'........
alas.......the fish are drowning.....

the skies are black.......black.......

its morning, and the skies are an ominous, night-time BLACK....
enough to make a girl 'quake' .......

why is god so angry this morning???
what can one glean from such pure FURY??

i suppose, on some level, that the old adage of 'ours is not to question' may apply specifically to this day.....to this moment......

the thunder cracking and screaming through the windows last night.....much the same.......

having said all of the above, one certainly can speculate!!!
and speculates what i do best!!!

so here goes.......

the question of 'free will'.......
the idea that one has the capacity to do as one wishes, is a puzzling concept to me......
it always has been.....

so if we can actually 'choose', it begs the question "what if the choice is heinous, unjust?".....

what if our 'free will' is wracked with violence and rage and broken spirit??
should god then not intervene??
can god intervene??

or is it really up to us to stop the rage on our own?

so then the concept of god becomes somehow grey.......in its entirety........

ahhhh......too much convoluted consideration at this early hour to be sure!!!

just hop on the old treadmill, and leave the theological and philosophical questions and pondering to the poets and thespians and theologians!!!

better to be 'diner girl' this morning!!!
yes!!!
treadmill and diner biscuits!!!
now thats worth pondering!!

the latin becoming second nature......

poignantly familiar, somehow......
and the old rabbis wait to bring in the newcomers.......boomers with babies.......
and family pets.....
arriving in Mercedes trailers!!!
fancy and trashy!!!
all at once.......baked in a pie......

attempting, through it all, to find 'grace'......
to FEEL 'godliness'......source, force, hekate..........celene.......messiah......
perpetually aware of the 'deficit'........
of the absence of grace......

while perfunctorily aware of the almighty power in this universe.....

babies left in baskets made of reeds......
Nile babies.......equestrians, to be sure........
'hooded' equestrians......to guard against the chill.......the chill of wrong doing........
CAUGHT.....green as pistachio........CAUGHT......cash in hand........
hand in the passover 'cookie jar'!!

hear ye!!! hear ye!!!

can these be 'friendly spirits' , knocking upon the windowpane?

"all in due time", said the old and crotchety frog......
"all in due time, my sons........"

and the metronome continued to wiggle and plod, back and forth.....
to and fro.....

hearing all the drumbeats!!
hearing everything.......

aware of every crevice and crease in st Jude's wardrobe.....aware of the altitude.......of the high, extreme altitude......

audaciously activated......

for no one can ever truly escape the clutches of 'frog-ness'.......
green with ENVY.......
toads of gastronomic persuasion.....

they are ALL the same.......the monotheistic ones......
they believe in the ONE NESS......
they CONTINUE to believe that light will come after darkness......
that matter MATTERS!!

parting the gridlock of Bethlehem....unto the ancient and tribal malignancy......

a kindred showman in a pond of SCUM..........

time is marching to a drummer of particular sensation........

and my life is BIGGER than my self......
and its so big, that ill need to hire a team of acrobatic experts to hold a soft, plush, rubber net in which to catch me when i inevitably fall!!!!
orrrr.......
the balloon will continue to fill with that silly and superfluous , hot air.......
and it surely will burst!!!
we can hope!!
for at this ridiculous rate of consumption, the girl has become CONSPICUOUS!!
to be sure......
the curious and obvious question at hand is "why?"
why is life becoming a series of 'show worthy' vignettes??
why???
is it a need, buried somewhere beneath the folds of skirt, to be recognized?? idolized??
imitated?? gawked at??? envied?? copied???
is it, somehow, a response to Hitlers desire to do away completely with the DNA of yesteryear??
i dont really think that DNA can be eradicated!!!
even at gunpoint!!!
we are what we are......
we will continue to thrive on 'said DNA'........cause thats ALL we know!!!
thats all we got!!!
"yes we can!!!"
and so......and so......
pursuits of love and belongingness and 'affordable canvas' pervade our days and nights.....
mother lionesses continue to roar......cause thats what lionesses do when cubs are in danger!!!!
formidable to be sure!!!!
and silly, little naives continue to attempt replication, as such......
attempting replication!!!
perhaps the naives will purchase a 'hummer'!!!
silly......silly.......
after all.......they dont have this lionesses main of hair!!!!
they have some spiky, bald replication of diller......Dilan????
i just dont know!!!
yikes!!!
i just do not know what to say!!!!

but ......NO WORRIES , MY LOVES.....
kol tuv.............all good!!

fit for a 'queen'!!!

to really en snare a girl like that, one would need, most certainly, to don his very best pair of Birkenstocks!!!
for clearly, hiking along summery, cottage trails.......looking for four leaf clovers!.....is on the upside of the agenda......
and this very same girl.......
lets call her 'Franny'......
shed bring along her highest pair of platform wedges to carry her judicially and fashionably into the summers eve.......
perhaps the 'man sandals' are a crude and poorly appointed idea!!!
in actuality.......
white, polished Nike sneakers may be a more 'esteemed' segway into her deep heart cavity!!
we speak continuously of 'Franny's' heart cavity......
i, being only your loyal blogger!, dont really know WHY we do so......
what are the secrets of Franny hearts desire???
what fantasy lies in those murky and reddish depths???
will there be plum pudding at the banquet of 'finished situations'??
will they be chanting the blessings of 'thanks' for the 'carbonaceous sweeteries'???
what, do you suppose, is the counterpart of a four leaf clover in Judaism??
a 6 pointed star perhaps??
a boiled and reticent egg??

someone told Franny to 'try the kosher experiment' AGAIN!!!!
SHE, BEING A GOOD, OBEDIENT GIRL, took heed....

the welts and hives and raunchiness RE appeared, for gods sake!!!!!

and the rabbis will bless the plum pudding.......
there will be no UN BLESSED treats on the table of convenience in the supermarket of Franny's
suburban neighborhood!!!!

EVEN I CAN ASSURE YOU OF THIS!!!!