and of how the one who is 'abused'....
or rather....
the one who WAS abused....
must be left
with a very blurry sense of 'right and wrong'....
(with regard to how THEY were treated)
and , i suppose, of how they WILL BE TREATED....
going forward.....
a sort of 'SOUL DISMORPHEA'......
and of how weirdly, intensified their feelings of guilt and remorse
must be......
even retroactively....
ESPECIALLY RETROACTIVELY.....
completely blaming themselves
for the'torture' that was inflicted....
'albeit insidiously'.....
upon them....
and i've been likening that whole SYNDROME....
to a that of a PRISONER.....
who finally gets out of jail......
after a veritable lifetime 'inside'....
and of how it must be utterly freightening and 'paralyzing' even.......
to suddenly be FREE....
without authority breathing down one's neck......
i suppose that this same set of diagnostics
can be
associated with really ANY scenario,
whereby the gauntlet of authority changes hands......
divorce.....
winning the lottery....
death.....
people are SOFT....
sensitive.....
easily wounded....
possible irreparable......
i'm just sayin'.....
