Thursday, January 24, 2013

Continues to amaze me....

It defies every rational cell in my head...
it REALLY does....
 that someone can TURN 150% in such VICIOUS and MANIC ways.....
But beyond that....
that somehow...somehow,,,,,
 they TRULY, irrefutably,,,
 believe that their behavior has been impeccable...impenetrable....
that they are RIGHTEOUS even!
That they are VICTIMS of wrong-doing...OVER and OVER again.....
"Professional Victims", I call them....
People who view themselves from their fantasy, puritanical towers....
PERFECT PEOPLE...beyond reproach...
"GOD's people"...
HAPPY people...
Yes,,,,SO HAPPY with their lives...
We've always suspected that people who
CONSTANTLY make declarations about how AMAZING and LUCKY their lives are...
are really pretty miserable underneath the shield of FAUX-BRAVADO
At first....yes.....
 they seem so benevolent and sweet and funny...
and charming and WONDERFUL to be around....
And you are THRILLED to pieces to have found them...
And SO WHAT if their declarations of self importance and worth seem a tad arrogant...
Right ?
I mean...
Who cares, right?
The sheer SIMPATICO between you is rampant...no question...
But relatively shortly thereafter...
LITTLE things begin popping up...
little annoyances...little inconsistencies....
And you CHOOSE, in these moments....
to ignore them....
wanting fiercely and profoundly to believe in the person...
But KNOWING somewhere in your heart.....that they are BAD...(KNOWING that they are BAD!)
And then...
just like that.....
 they suck you back in with their melodrama and their intrigue and their mysterious ailments...
And JUST when they have your FULL ATTENTION,,,,yet again,,,,
they TURN.....Yup.....
They become distant and creepy...
And it seems like they've completely forgotten ALL the things that brought you together in the first place...
They seem to have forgotten WHOLE CONVERSATIONS even...
They seem,
dare I say it aloud....
like SCHIZOPHRENICS who've been released from the asylum for the day...
And they begin to INSULT and BADGER and even THREATEN you...
They become full blown VIPERS....
STREET VIPERS...
And they make stupid, ireversable mistakes in their moment of hysteria...
like telling you, for example,
 (IN WRITING!) that the policemen in town are THEIR OWN PERSONAL HENCHMEN...lol
and that they will follow any and all of their personal orders...
regardless of legalities, rules, etc.
I'm sure those cops would be THRILLED to hear about that particular statement!
lolol
And then suddenly....
 the soft, round, cherubs that you once fleetingly THOUGHT they were....
 turn into UGLY, NASTY gutter rats....
right before your eyes...
But at that point,,,,you're SO OVER them, that it's ONLY an annoyance...nothing more....