Saturday, September 4, 2010

she found the invitation on the foyer table......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7WpdSh8VYd4a parchment scroll.....
wrapped with a delicate, blue ribbon.....

somehow, it had been buried under
bills and catalogues and essential clutter.....
FOR WEEKS !!

and, of course, she had jumped to the conclusion.....
that she had been LEFT OUT....
that she was unwanted,
unneeded somehow.....
superfluous.....

why did she ALWAYS assume the worst ??
how had she become so JADED ??

the notion disturbed her greatly.....
she had worked laboriously at 'ASCENSION'.....
at 'detaching' from the fray......
from the ordinary.....

and yet, when it came to simply,
"giving the benefit of the doubt".....
she was lost......
a prisoner of her own sense of inadequacy.....
of her vast, personal insecurity.....

she would continue to BELIEVE.....
in people......
in a sense of significance..
in a world bereft of 'unfairness and ineqity'.....

most importantly.....
she would continue to LOVE HERSELF.....
without caveat.....
without exception.....

indeed, this would take more practice.....
more yoga.....
more meditation.....
mantras of self worth.....
of unconditional acceptance.....

and she would continue her quite admirable attempts at forgiveness.....

the problem was not with HER, per se......
it was with the 'others'.....
they were far from becoming 'illumined' themselves.....
they were stuck in some kind of vaccum of yesterday's norms....
their codes of conduct seemed blurred, at best.....

nonetheless.....
she would shake off the judgment....the pain of betrayal.....

"netty netty", she would chant......
"i am not my body...."
"i am not my thoughts..."