i'll have what SHE's having !!

a little, fragmented 'happenstance' on rye !
with a side of 'turmoil and coincidence'....
now, there's a mouthful to hunker down on....:))
we think we are SO SPECIAL !!
indefatigable !!
and then all the lego pieces
on the universal cake of
'our truth'
come spiraling and crashing down...
all around us...
and do you know what ??
we have to begin AGAIN !!!
ALL OVER AGAIN !!!
plain and simple as the nose
on 'this jew's' face !
and if we are very, very careful
and clever and
calculating about the
're installation'and 're configuration'
of the old,hackneyed 'lego project'....
and if we can begin to possess
the patience and virtuosity
and fortitude to build,
piece by piece, anew....
well....
i'm here to tell you that......
"IT'S POSSIBLE".....
albeit improbable....
but it is possible to begin again !!
that's all i'm saying...
ladies....
start your engines !!!

so we wait....

and we try our level best
NOT to 'cast apsersians' on those
"less ascended"....less 'fortunate'...(perhaps)...
for after all is said and done,
the simple truth is that
we are NOT "ALL CREATED EQUAL"....
we are poignantly and magnificently 'different',
from our feet to our hearts to our fingernails....
we are, specifically 'DIFFERENT'....
fueled by unique, quantified and qualified 'detail'...
in fact, it is our subsequent 'commonalities',
few and far between...
that actually bring us together at all....
just thinking out loud, my loves....
just thinking.....
about the moves....
contemplating....speculating....
designing the (seemingly)'ad hoc'position ....
attempting to make it appear, always, 'ad hoc' !!
that's the challenge....
appear 'effortless'....indifferent almost....
all the while,
giving it your BEST, CALCULATED 'SHOT' !!!
SHABBAT SHALOM.....

there are those who say....

"that there is no such thing as 'potential'"....
that there is ONLY 'actualized potential'....
it's kind of like dribbling the ball,
but not making the basket....
an exersise in extreme futility....
to be sure....
we waste our precious time....
NOT making the basket !!
and to what end ??
a question with certain
'existential' implication...
the question at hand...
the REAL QUESTION....
is 'why' ??
why do we expend our energy on
mineutia
and silliness and non-fruition ??
there are terrorists out there !!!
for god's sake !!!
there are bombers and guys with grendades....
waiting to detinate the 'superfluous'...
and we are DRIBBLING ???
would that we could move 'upcourt'
with decisive
purpose....
in order to de-activate the BOMB....
ahhh....
contemplation...speculation....
would....should....could....
cracking nuts over the 'chocolate' sundaes of
political indignation....

why is 'disrespect' so profoundly infuriating ??

we can, literally, be RAPED, PILLAGED, KILLED even....
and we will attempt to 'turn the other cheek'.....
but DISRESPECT US....
and we will SLAUGHTER YOU !!!
what's up with that ?
why do our egos become of such paramount significance....
where 'bruising' and 'wounding' are concerned ?
why are we so sensitive to what others 'think' of us ??
to how we are 'perceived' ?
did we not drink enough MILK as kids ???
were we 'bottle fed' perhaps ??
did our moms lock us in closets
take away our dinner???
WHAT HAPPENED TO US ???
WHAT HAS MADE US SOOOOO 'insecure' ???
is it possible that we did one too many 'triple flips'
on the trampoline during puberty ???
did wilson highschool play a role in this
'insecurity squabble'???
were the rolling hills just TOO FUCKING GREEN ??
WHAT ??
WHAT ??!!

pondering the 'conspicuous'...

it has come to pass, time and again....
that the very thing that is
DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE.....
is the thing that somehow, ironically,
is perpetually 'ignored and overlooked'....
further....
you spend your days and nights
in blatant SEARCH
of 'said thing'.....
what is it that makes human beings
so absurdly 'daft',
when it comes to 'doing what is necessary'
for the self??
for 'soul nourishment' ??
perhaps it is the inability to SEE....
to really 'see' with that 'gorgeous'
set of eyes you've been given....
perhaps, even still,
the WAY in which you 'see'...
is a 'tad superficial'....
is it possible to GO DEEPER ??
TO REALLY LOOK AND SEE AND FIND
the keys to the kingdom ??
the ones on the key ring in your favorite handbag....
they have been there, amid the jumble, all along !

and she said that there were 'demons'..

demons had attatched themselves !!!!
MY GOODNESS !!
but that a 'clearing' would expunge the forces at work...
and that the 'haters' would go back to into their caves...
beneath the rubble and debris....
the 'haters'....
ewwww.....
what can you do when your 'magnetic field'
is so evolved,
that even 'evil' things attatch to you ?
how can you deny your own,
'open' and 'vulnerable'
'energetic field' ??
6 feet in all directions, i'm guessing....

"become 'invulnerable','inpenetrable'", you say ?
easier said than done, MIDAS !!
yes, indeed,
the 'alchemical transmutation'
would come in handy about now !!
yes, indeed !!
turn those freaks into gold bars,
and stick them where the sun don't shine !!!

the road to 'ascension' is a rough one, to be sure....
paved with 'guffaw' and 'snafu' and melodrama....

CLEARING OUT.....
CLEARING OUT, my loves....

SHABBAT SHALOM....

there was no time for a 'blow dry' !!

we were in such a hurry !!!
me 'n him !!
running down the avenue, hand in hand....
like two, silly teenagers....
running to get the tickets !!!
unaware of the 'raw sexuality' that (apparently)
was oooozing from our beings....
fun in the springtime sun !!
happy fun with NO DEMONIC, 'prima donna',baggage....
pulling at our skirt and sleeves and apron strings ....
freedom on that 'fairy tale' afternoon....
freedom to run and purchase the tickets on the
'starcrossed express'....
going somewhere wonderful and whimsical and fortuitous...
with NO POLITICAL DAMAGE !!!
no elephants...no DONKEYS....
just "us" on a train to nowhere....
yeah....
MAGNIFICENT SUGAR IN THE 'COLLATERAL AFTERNOON'......