you can have whatever you like.....

words to live by.......
everything is available.....
ALL OF IT !!!
at your fingertips......
just like that....
all you need do is 'wish' upon the 'purim' stars.......
triangular cookies and noisemakers galore will be yours,
as the 'enemies of the state' are sold as chattle,
with the caveat of  'disclamer'.....
one never knows  when disclaimer will come in handy !
one simply cannot have enough disclaimer !!
and the clauses are endless.....
NOT 'SANTA CLAUSES' !!
rudolph is sequestered until next december....
getting the gifts ready.....
rudolph is germanic in nature....
likes to 'plan ahead'.....
and the children are dancing and wearing 'prada' glasses.....
as another season of merriment unfolds....
and so it goes.......

its coming up 'buttercups'...

the snow melts away,
 and the long visit at the 'inner sanctum hotel'.....
comes to a HAPPY CLOSE.....
all is , once again, well....
in the land of freedom and virtuosity....
the cows have been 'put out to pasture'.....
thankfully !!
each cow has been 'dealt with'....
accordingly...
 in deference to her own, particular brand of 'feed'.......and such......
unfortunate 'icicles' are dropping on heads rolling by.......
unfortunate casualties of winters gone awry.....

nonetheless......
the sky is turning and churning out happy songs of 'goodbye'.....
summer is right around the bend !!!

yippee !!!!!!!!

never having been a fan of gossip......

and useless rhetoric....
i am chagrined , at best.......
by the way 'friends' can turn on a dime....
somehow even 'invalidating' the purity and 'sanctity' of friendship....
of commeradery....
of kindred ness.....

and then.....
on the other hand,
how far is too far ???
when does an 'indiscretion' turn into to a 'betrayal' ??
how much is TOO MUCH ??

these are the meandorings,
set high upon this evening's sabbath table ......
for your perusal and, of course, editorial......

on being a 'lady'....

what is it that allows one woman
to bring her grumpy and hostile day with her,
 regardless of the 'NEEDS' around her ?

while others,
 in considerably worse situational actuality,
can pointedly  don their 'party face',
 so as to 'comfort' and assimilate??

why are some so entitled to their moods?
 while others
work so hard to 'mask' their own sorrows and such ??
is it cultural?
is it a question of proper 'parenting'?

who on earth !
  gave 'permission' to those people
to 'do whatever they feel'....

at any time ??

and further....
to judge and question and ridicule,
those things that do not
 fit smoothly
into their silly and prissy,  plastic boxes??
the ones with the mundane decals ,
stamped atop the lids ?

is it a result of their own, personal frustration ??

do these divas ever, truly, look into the mirror ?

and what is it, prey tell, that they see when they do?

who do they see looking back at them ?
who and what is guiding their behavior ?
and to what end ??

they are parochial 'concubines'......

spoiled....underdeveloped.....

and we are constantly, for some crazy reason,
 unbeknownst to us,
working to PLEASE THEM......

but they can't really, EVER, be pleased.....

because they are closed to love and flaw and compassion....

because they are wrapped so tightly into the womb of minutia.....

we have felt sorry for them from time to time....

but their  lack of decorum and feminine sympatico has left us feeling COLD......

and their complete inability to 'unconditionally love'.....

well.....
i don't know what to say about that....

perhaps they need to go back to studying 'TORAH'......
deeply....
so as to incorporate the ethics and nuances of becoming
'women of valour'.......

or perhaps, after all is said and done,
they just need to remain afloat,
upon their own
'life rafts'.....

the ones with the built-in alarm clocks.....
and daily planners......
and potential menus....

"and just like that ....."

the fantasy becomes a reality.....
and it COMPLETELY lives up to its 'point of expectation'.....
perhaps it even exceeds it..........
on some level....
and yet......
feelings of 'doubt' peremeate the 'all but perfect' scene.....
leaving a piece of 'heart', lying atop the duvet.......

the human condition is a fragile entity......
flawed....
somehow.......taken 'hostage' easily.....
we slip into the ever-familiar role of 'victim'......
so as not to necessitate GUILT.....remorse...regret.......

all the while, feeling 'pretty damn good' !!

complicated beings....we are......
complicated and predictable and TOTALLY SURPRISING !!

he lives in the shadows of his own 'darkness'........

and he allows himself to come out and 'play' every so often...
seldom, actually.....
for his sense of responsibilty is fierce.....and all enveloping.....
as though he were the FATHER of everything mystical......
he carves and studies and chants and 'casts'......
and somehow, he forgets his very own 'humanity'......as such......
and the little boy who lives inside his body cries......
tears of a child, wanting to be free of encumbrance....of work......
but his sense of obligation tends to override the 'little boy's needs'.....
hence....
his insides can feel twisted and torn......
quite in contrast to his physical 'beauty'.......
nonetheless......
we continue to love him......
for he has a piece of our heart in his back pocket......
for safe keeping......:)
ode to 'ricky'........

the embroidery on the 'challah cover' of life.....

it's a thing of great beauty.....
the way the silken thread of lifes 'tapestry' continuously weaves 'in and out' ,
in order to create a colorful and meaningful
 'plethora' of exchange and metaphor and experience.....
in order to keep us ALWAYS on our 'mindful' toes....
perched upon the edge of
 'anticipatory limb'....
are we ready to HANDLE and to COPE
 and to essentially 'FILIBUSTER' at a moment's notice ??
just like that ??
and what if we are NOT READY for the COLOR ???
will it not bleed itself into our day regardless ??
'nonplussed' by our lack of prepared ness ???
better, my friends, to 'MAN UP'.....
to await, with eyes wide open ,
for the twists and turns that will surely make their way
onto your
'road map' of choice.....
don't say that i didn't try to 'warn' you  !!!
GET READY !!!!
the opportunity will only show itself
when you are COMPLETELY READY FOR IT !!!!
and even still.......you may miss it....
no regrets,   my loves......
please....
do it right !!