Monday, December 1, 2008

DUPLICITY...DUALITY......

"you lead two lives", he said...........

jarrrrring words....... two lives??? me???

one-dimentional, single-minded me???

me...........the girl who slam dunks the basket from the top of the key??

the jew , prominently seated in the front row of the synagogue????

the mommy parked complacently in the hummer, waiting for baby boy??

is a 'complacent hummer' oximoronic??(side thought!

what is this 'mad man' saying???

why is it stinging my cheeks, as if ive been slapped in the face??

dont we all have different sides to our personas?

why am i being pulled in that direction?

why do women want 'bad boys'??

boys who put them down, while raising them to new heights........

do we look for punishment?

do we, after all is said and done, WANT to be tormented??

are we masachists with mezuzot hanging on our doorposts???

we find safety in the rutual, all the while yearning for danger......

please explain, dear readers........

give me the insights on these utterly schizophrenic-like desire compulsions.......

commentaries welcome.......... i am, humbly,your........

GODDESS XREBBETZIN........