feng shui.......all of it!!

there is NOTHING better for the senses.......
than a pure, clean obliteration of stuff.......
no 'hangers on'......no 'pack-ratting' allowed!!
just a simple, succinct 'DO OVER'.....
just like that....
gone is the hoopla.......
the bubblegum wrappers........
the old , corduroy pantsuit.....
June's magazines have no business in the 'timely' and sexy, 'millennium' crib of AUGUST!!!
panthers and cougars and alligators are falling from the ceiling of the shoe closet!!!
oh my!!!
oh my!!!
FANTASTIC FENG SHUI isms!!!!!
astonishingly FRESH!!!
no homespun tartlettes in the august atmosphere.......
oh, no......
just a big ol' HANGOVER and a basket of 'countrified cherries'......
just picked!!!
i promise!!!

elegant and eloquent.........

perhaps we can begin to find 'reason' amidst the 'dis reason'........
words can punctuate and infiltrate and mediate.........and even exacerbate........
elegance of movement......stealth....grace.....
these are the accoutrement that great 'experience' and 'happenstance' are made from........
and so........
we begin to be sanguine......fluid......
because we feel the need to insinuate our own brand of 'lady ness' into 'said situation'........
because we CAN......
thank the 'heavens' that we CAN!!
and pink candles are glistening as summer memoir is compiled.........
and ya can't please all of the people!!
and so on......
the people please rs are seated in the front row of the 'reviewing stand' of my life.......
hoping to please 'moi'???
not an easy task!!!
many, many have tried!!
nonetheless.........we live in a somewhat FREE COUNTRY......
enter at your own risk!!
but please, please bring your umbrellas!!!

escaping the clutches of exterior 'chaos'.........

one cannot really help but notice the chaos and melodrama that exist in our exterior surroundings.......
in perpetuity.....
the choice then becomes.....
do we allow the 'madness' to seep, insidiously, in to our field of energy??
orrrrrrrr......
do we simply 'duck' in a 'tai chi' fashion, and let that' ball of fury 'pass us by??
virtually unscathed......
redirected melodrama.......
with a side of fluffed and rejiggered articulation......or 'ab sense of articulation'.......
absence of notification.....
neglected drama!!!
is neglected drama really drama at all??
orrrrr.........
is it just the tantrum and stamping of feet from the 'neglected peanut gallery'??!!
hmm......
for when all is said and done......
the 'A' LIST need not STAMP anything at all!!!
with the exception, perhaps, of an overnight ed envelope!!!

the delicate, yet 'hearty' flower.........

is opening its extraordinarily beautiful red petals, as we speak.........
(as we type rather!)
it is as if a new universe has offered itself up to us........on high......
on level high......
Pandora will be dancing, as her box is pried open......for all to see!!
what treasures lie deep within Pandora's 'envied' treasure box???
we are about to find that long awaited answer!
and yet.......and yet......
she knows, full well, that even as they pry her 'box' open......
ALBEIT UNDER A MODICUM OF DURESS.......
it can close immediately!!
SEAL ITSELF SHUT!!!!!
even perhaps, WHILE the 'pr yer' has his hands STILL inside of it!!!
one can never be too sure about 'Pandora's secret box'!!!
and so, my beloved s.......
ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!
shabbat shalom.......
GODDESS XREBBITZIN

"cleanse and purify, my sons".......

i have, very recently, had THE EXTRAORDINARY opportunity
to empty out the REMAINING TRACES of 'debris' from my life......
in a PHYSICAL and most 'METAPHYSICAL' way........
to essentially 'feng shui' ALL OF IT......
the ideologies and perceptions and belief systems of yesteryear..........
GONE!!!!!
DONE!!!
expunged!!
and to live and work and 'play'.......
on EMPTY......
so to speak.......
and so.....
feeling galvanized and reinvigorated and 'vacuous' in some ways......
has led me to feeling rather deeply sensational!!! .......
and dare i say.....
somewhat 'illumined'!!
hence......i have begun to 'give pause' to ways 'haggard and antiquated',
in order to
open the silken gates to allow the soothing and 'life altering' liquid to flow, torentially , throughout my body........
to gush its very essence into the deepest, most cavernous parts of me.........

and amid this GORGEOUS 'metamorphosis'.....
i have, somehow, come to understand my people on a deepened vibratory LEVEL.......

for example......
these days of fasting within religion....
within myriad religions.......
i finally can see that they are not put into practice, in order to PUNISH US.......
but rather......to ENLIGHTEN US......
to 'clarify' difficult and frustrating dilemma, etc

for when ones focus is 'disturbed' by mediocrity and whim,......
one cannot really SEE THE LIGHT OF REDEMPTION that is actually
DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF HER NOSE!!!
but take away the 'silly and superfluous'.....
and guess what, my pretties???
PURITY WILL REIGN 'SUPREME'!!!!!!!!!!!!
that's a promise!
and within that kind of 'earned', sacred space......
a rejiggering and reevaluating and reconnoitering scenario begins......
in which case, the elements are universally 'backing' the 'purifying one'.......
and so on.........

the 'gestault' of EVERYTHING..........

cycles and cycles of endless, 'boomerang' ian persuasion........
one can rest assured that 'what goes around, perfunctorily doth come around....
its as 'given' as 'death and taxes' and 'jock itch' and 'electric hair' in December in new york!!
we tend to hide, as though we are an ostrich, burying its head.....
but rest assured, my fellow birds, the very thing that nags at the back of your neck in the BEGINNING......is the VERY THING that comes back to bite you in your 'sweet ass' in the ULTIMATE END.....
I'M NOT SAYING THAT EVERYTHING ULTIMATELY ENDS!!!
far be it from me to draw a conclusion as ABSOLUTE as that!!!
well.......maybe!
but the point is......that one is actually honed in on the negatives and positives of ANY given situation, relationship, etc........from MINUTE ONE.......
one then, parenthetically, chooses, almost mechanically, which road to travel upon......
frosts words come to mind!
and that's really that.....
the sun continues to send her orange and yellow and red rays down to warm our 'halos' down here.....
and with very warm halos in tow......
well, I'm just beside myself with the possibilities!!
we could......mmm......
toast bread on our HEADS!!!!
I'm sure that there are other things we could do with OUR HOT HEADS!!!!
gotta be!!!
cant think!!
its early!!!
forever yous.......
GODDESS X

they are ALL here.......

incredibly.......fantastically.......
they are ALL here at once!!!!!
all my home skillets!!!!
back in DA hood!!!
oh, yeahhhhh........
its 'miller' time!!!
no no!!!
Yeager mysters for all!!!!
how did they ALL get here at the same time???
what on earth is going on????
its a 'noteworthy' moment when all congruent forces meet at a 'relative' apex of confluence......
sisters, brothers mine!!!
we delight in this shockingly 'WOODSTOCKian' happenstance!!!!
we.........my 'SUMMER LOVE' and me......
'WE'...........has a ring to it!!
will 'SUMMER LOVE' morph into 'autumn love'???
hmmm...

simply delicious!!!!

I'm just delirious with the heaps of 'deliciousness',
pouring over me like liquid elixir.........
raining down over my shoulders and hair and neck,


as though the the gods had taken barrels of honey and Cinnamon and decided to 'shower' these days with sweetness and bounty......

i look in the mirror of 'vanity'.......just a peak really!.......
and there are two glowing, green lights.........
staring back at me in wonder and gratitude.......
the kind of GREEN that deflates, ever-so-delicately, the 'vanity' between the two of US 'GIRLS'.....
(me and my reflection!)

and beyond the obvious reasons to gaze at oneself.......
(in order for proper decorum and such....)........
beyond this 'practical application'......

exists a kind of newly evolved LOVE....if you will.....
'self-love'.......
grown and nourished through extraordinary circumstance.........
IN SPITE OF extraordinary circumstance......

and so.....my good fellows.......WE DANCE!!!
because we CAN!!!!

what to do amid 'uncertainty'........

what is one supposed to do when utter 'confusion' and the APPEARANCE OF possible melodrama set in??
is it more 'cost efficient' to simply put the confusion aside, in order to continue cruising upon the 'HIGHWAY OF 'STATUS QUOT'???
or..........
can we manifest a certain 'ECONOMY OF MEANS' by stepping into the eye of the storm, adhering in our own 'saucy'! way to the RULES OF ENGAGEMENT???
OUR rules of engagement!!!!
in any case.......certain 'roads less taken' are appearing as possibilities on the 'expressway' of our life.......
should we be 'quick and smart and efficient' and take the SERVICE ROADS???
ORRRRRRRRRR.............
SHOULD WE WEATHER THE STORM OF TRAFFIC AND GRIDLOCK AND 'RUBBERNECKING', in order to actually LAND by the sea????
pondering......pondering........
meandering........
speculating........
climbing in and out of conundrum after conundrum.........
is the conundrum perhaps 'SELF-INFLICTED'??????
these are the thought processes of 'me'........
for your reading pleasure and virtual consideration!
stay tuned...........

brotha from anotha motha..........

when your 'brotha from anotha motha' comes to town.......ALL BETS ARE OFF!!!!!

you guys skedaddle down memory lane, as if youre right out on that mountain.........
hoppin the powdered moguls on those 'wise-ass' k2s....
no FEAR...................
FEARLESS!!!!

and things change ......and you dont feel the significance of the changes, because you guys have 'love'........
love that runs deeper than your own bloodstream........
profound, nonnegotiable love.......
and thats that!!!
so........
move over, new yorkers!!!!
the kids are back in town!!!!!
and we gonna be JAMMIN those guitar strings tonight!!!!!

AND THE RACE IS ON......

STALLIONS VERSUS PONIES WITH CLUB FEET!!!!
REALLY.....
TRULY.......
THERE IS NO CONTEST!!
WHAT CAN YOU DO??
IT IS , MOST DECIDEDLY, WHAT IT IS......
NONETHELESS, WE CONTINUE UPON THE PATH OF RIGHTEOUS PREDISPOSITION.....
ACCOUNTABLE.......INDEFATIGABLE......
WHAT ELSE CAN WE DO.....????......
AFTER ALL IS SAID AND DONE......
THIS IS REALLY JUST ONE BIG, FAT CONTEST OF WILL, DETERMINATION, AND STYLE......
THEY DON'T HAVE IT!!!!
WE DO!!!!

'PITY THEM', YOU SAY???
HOW CAN WE PITY SUCH SILLY MORPHS OF DOUGH AND SINEW AND PONTIFICATION?????
THERE ARE CHILDREN IN THIRD WORLD 'suburbs' STARVING!!!!!
FOR HEAVENS SAKE!!!!
THE SUVs ARE 3 OR 4 YEARS OLD!!!!
AND THEY CANNOT AFFORD TO REPLACE THEM!!!!
HONESTLY, BROTHERS!!!
PRIORITIZE!!!!
DON THOSE VELVET SKULL CAPS......the ones with the curly sideburns attached!!!
AND SAVE THE SUBURBAN CHILDREN FROM VEGANACIOUS DILEMMA!!!!!
TRUST WHAT I'M TELLING YOU, BROTHERS!!!
THY WILL CAN CAST REEL UPON REEL OF SUNLIGHT INTO THE CANISTER OF FILM......
HASTE DOES MOST CERTAINLY NOT MAKE WASTE!!!!!
AND SO IT GOES......AFTER ALL........

quick and sundry development........

cant seem to catch my breath!!
decisions!!
decisions!!
choices..........
note to self......."NOT IN BEST FORM WHEN CHOICES ARE FLYING AT ME"....
ahhh........beautiful and sparkly July whimsy......
like a firework!!!
yes.........like a firework!!!
playing guitar for 'moi' all night long!!!!
mmmmmm.......delicious.....contagious......tears of music streaming down my neck amidst hot smoke of summer lovin......
damn.......life is sweet......birds are probably chirpin a love song out there on the cement!!
poor birds......chirpin a love melody........just for me........
damn.....life is sweet........

from whence they stood......

as fate would have it......

the electrons are charging forward............

in a most 'audacious' way......

electrified magnificence.....with a side of 'chagrin'.....

well, after all......NOTHING is perfect....or so it seems.....

and so.......we move in a DIRECT way toward euphoric mania.......

sweet.....sweet.......

perhaps what we wish for, ultimately, is within our 'said' grasp........

perhaps, in effect, one should be very , very careful regarding 'wishes' and such.....

for after all the posturing and jockeying and rejiggering is said and done.......

the simple truth is that a fish cannot DROWN, without being choked!!

and that is that!!!!

choked fish is distinctly NOT on the menu in the hotel dining room of 'geriatric HUDSON'......

gotta paint!!!!!
gotta paint!!!!!

silly and superfluous speculation......
no rest for the weary biker chicks!!!

gotta hop on the old Harley and cruise to ascent ion......
yup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the candid stranger.......

he lurks out in the abyss......
out in the 'FRIENDLY' abyss......
out in HER 'FRIENDLY' abyss.......
can an abyss be FRIENDLY????
he is about to take the leap into her universe.......she can as much as FEEL him on his way.....
blond and fair and big and 'chill in'.........so 'chill in'........
and the anticipation is palpable in its aggression......
in its splendid magnificence......

and so the girl is told to "wait patiently"......
HA!!
if only he knew how arduous the task!!!!
how IMPOSSIBLE REALLY FOR THE 'MAIDEN IN WAITING'.......

fair haired 'devil boy'........SHE CANNOT WAIT!!!!!
the weekend will tick by.......as if a metronome on a past grand piano of the hunchbacked master.......
tick to ck.......tick to ck......
a brunch.......
a swim.....
paint!!!! paint!!!!
for gods sake!!!!

to be taken by surprise.........

.......is one of life's most splendiferous attributes!!!
one truly never knows when purple and yellow and psychedelic balloons will fall from the sky,
onto ones LAP!!!!
....with 'stick-it notes' attached!!!!
I'm not kidding!!!
the notes have assorted messages......"i love you'......."happy birthday!"........
"be mine".....etc.....
in point of fact, it has been RAINING BALLOONS in my backyard ALL DAY LONG!!!!!
I'm not even kidding!!!!
bouquets of latex wonder have floated their way into my house even!!!
magnanimously sent down from the heavens.......
AMAZING!!!
FANTASTIC!!!
I'm just beside myself with delight!!!!
surprises ....
wrapped up with red ribbons and glitter!!!!!
offerings!!!!
limitless......
an INFINITY OF surprises!!!!
July is GORGEOUS in new york!!!!!!

who knew?????

full moon......

above my head........the orb of 'magnetic persuasion'.......
in FULL esteem......fully dilated.......
as if.......as if.......
the gods were whispering a star-crossed melody in my ear......
'WE LOVE YOU.......'we love you......'
and then some......
fully dilated, Spanish moon.....she-moon.......
pouring over the methodical articulation, as if it were eventually becoming 'disappeared'.....
invisible.....ignored.....

my lady moon, shine your ethereal and whimsical light upon my furthest meanderings........
envelop me in your yellow majesty, as only YOU can.......

and when the love affair between you and me has reached its crescendo, REMEMBER ME, lady moon........
as i shall surely remember you..........

and a light shown ethereally.......

...through the mist.....
the light of redemption......
of euphoric transmutation......
ultraviolet light.......
to re energize and re invigorate the aura.......
the esteemed aura of the somewhat under-purified soul....
.......or so it seemed
as well as the physical body.....to be sure....

and free thinking and high vibratory manifestations were felt, albeit hyperbolic ally........
conquests!!!!
conciliatory con questrians!!!!
golden saddles ablaze in the july sunlight!!!!
GORGEOUS!!!! GORGEOUS!!!!
free at last, silly geese!!!!

and the girl walked for miles on end........

surveying.......reflecting......
smiling on the inside as well........
as from her fresh face it appeared so........
and as fortune would have it, the ring of truth was heard throughout the cement jungle.......
and the warriors were dancing and chewing bubble gum to the beat of the shamans drum........

and a leprechaun with wings swam by verrrrrrrry quickly, as if the race were on indeed!!

the race to Antarctica!!!
to the 'chill'......
to 'chillin'.......

and yet......something seemed amiss......
not exactly amiss......just sort of 'precipice ish'......
teetering upon an invisible, symbiotic precipice........
or so i was told!!

and the unicycle of life rolls onward......

.....and parents become children......
and children become men.....
and eyes get puffy, and 'second hand smoke' permeates the stadium of voyeurism.........
and the matzoh is particularly stale, having been stashed away with the passover dishes ......
in the basement of the yellow house on fifth street........

bittersweet chocolates are ALL THE RAGE, in order to heal the 'triglycerides' ........
in order to heal the rage??
bittersweet memoirs.....in order to heal the vacuous space in the heart of the people.......

stress levels consolidate on balmy Monday mornings.......
and painters are being dropped off at 'local construction sites'......
by their wives......driving pickup trucks and such........
droning onward.......droning......
to better suit the needs of the community at large......at 'largess'.......

and still.......we fly off into the blue yonder of 'fantastic revelation'.......
swimming in the blue pool.......drinking blue Gatorade.......NOT feeling particularly BLUE whatsoever!.........